I feel like this is sudden, but it’s probably not. I have lost my will to give a crap at work.
I am totally on auto-pilot. I have never found myself here before. Even at the worst of times at my old gig, I had projects and concerns. I went out of my way for things.
Now, I find myself in this insane state where I really just sit at my desk, work slowly and keep my head down.
This isn’t me. I’m passionate. I’m a fighter. I want to make change.
The situation here has sapped me clean out of all of that good stuff. It’s a combination of things that have caused this. Bad management, disrespect, condescension. I’m being dramatic, but I’m a husk of the woman I have been my whole career.
I need to find myself anew, but I know it won’t happen here.